How I Healed the Holes in My Soul!
As an Inter-Faith (All Faiths) Minister I started looking at the world one day and wondering why so many people are taking their own life. People well known and not so well known, people who, on the outside, look like they have it all but on the inside really did not have it all but were empty and in pain, and the only way out was to take their own life.
It got me thinking about my own life and I too have reached the point, several times in my life, where I said it’s just too hard to go on, it’s just too much… Through God’s grace I have endured and learned to “heal the holes” in my soul. Though I still have my bad times, they are not as bad as they once were, don’t last as long as they used to or take me to the “poison” in my soul, I learned there are ways through the bad times, and I don’t have to be a victim anymore.
This is my story, a man who went from having “holes” in his soul to being ”whole” again. I sincerely hope there are some tools in this book that help you on your journey in this game we called life. Whatever you are going through, don’t give up, there is always hope, there is always God. God will find a way where there appears to be no way. God has not given up on you, so you don’t give up on yourself. I healed the holes in my soul and so can you!
Table of Contents
PART I – How I Got This Way
Chapter 1: My Childhood
PART II – The Feelings and Emotions
Chapter 2: God, Where the Hell Were You!
Chapter 3: Your Feelings Will Wait…
Chapter 4: Pain is Pain, just the Wrapper is Different
Chapter 5: Loneliness, Lonely, Alone…
Chapter 6: I’m Less Than…
Chapter 7: Pain, Anger and Sorrow
Chapter 8: I Have Seen the Darkness – Many, Many Times…
Chapter 9: Depression
Chapter 10: Shame
Chapter 11: Rage!!!
Chapter 12: Addiction – My Crutch to Never Healing
Chapter 13: I Fooled the World but Was Only Fooling Myself…
Chapter 14: Meet My Longtime Companion – Suicide
PART III – Recovery and Rebuilding
Chapter 15: Adulthood
Chapter 16: I’m Not Damaged or Broken
Chapter 17: Breaking the Chains of Pain
Chapter 18: Wholeness and “Hole-ness”
Chapter 19: Healing
Chapter 20: Forgiveness
Chapter 21: All You Need is Love
Chapter 22: The Animal Kingdom
Chapter 23: Mother Nature
Chapter 24: Gratitude
Chapter 25: The Spirituality of Suicide –
The Spiritual Law of Karma and Other Spiritual Realities
Chapter 26: Discovering Our Life’s Purpose –
The Journey Within
Chapter 27: God Will Help Us
Conclusion – It’s Not the End It’s a New Beginning
Resources: Prayers, Meditations, Exercises
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